Where Have I Been???

Have you ever walked out of the bathroom and immediately see a co-worker or someone you know? Somehow there is always this awkward silly grin exchange. What is that all about? It must be like ‘ha ha, I know what you were just doing’.

Maybe its just weird, like when I went to my gyno and her nurse ‘helper’ was a lady I’ve played soccer with. I don’t know why, but its oddly comforting when the people all up in your stuff, is someone you don’t have any outside relationship with. Weird.

You know what else is weird? I’m attending a training this week (at a hotel) and I’m not the one training. Woot! That’s so refreshing!

Buying a House

I got a comment that I’ve been MIA, and I have to apologize! I’ve totally been a slacker seriously. Why have I been so horrible at blog keeping?

Well it all started about a month ago. Everyone kept saying we really should look into getting a house. At first I scoffed at the idea, not thinking it was even a remote possibility. Isn’t it smarter to be patient and totally get me out of debt?

But then we looked at it closer, and there really hasn’t been a better time to buy. We quality for the 8000 tax incentive for one, which was just extended for the last time until April 30. Prices are incredibly low. Interest rates are very low too. It just makes sense. So we looked at our finances and realized we could actually do it with a little sacrifice etc.

And we really do need a house. We have a 2 bedroom apartment and we need space so bad! Our pantry is underneath the table people. Its really bad!

Well I warned him that things tend to happen really quick for me, and boy did they! We found a house immediately! Click here to see the house! We love it! Its in a good area, its right across the street from one of my best friends!

We looked at different houses, and tons online etc. But it didn’t take us long to find the one we wanted! We are just so thrilled. It is seriously awesome. It has FIVE bedrooms, three upstairs which we love. Its not my fav that its split entry, but we love everything else about it. It has all been completely remodeled, everything painted and new carpet everywhere. The bathrooms all have new tile and fixtures, counters. Everything in the kitchen is brand new. Oh it is just so nice. And then downstairs they have extended it out so the living room downstairs is huge!!! We seriously love it. I cannot wait to move into it!

But holy cow people. All of you who have bought a house, you know our pain! There is so much involved. Its ten times harder than getting a job or anything I’ve ever done before. Thankfully our loan officer and realtor are friends of people we know so they are GREAT! They are helping us with the process, and actually things are going pretty smooth and fast to be honest. We have signed to buy it and everything.

It is being appraised currently, everything went great with the title. The loan is picture perfect due to Adam’s perfect credit! Gosh he is such a keeper! We did find some things with the house inspection. There were a few things to fix but also it has the original ac and furnace which are functioning, but BARELY. Yikes! So we send an addendum to the sellers asking for everything to be fixed and then to take off $5500 of the asking price due to those problems. They weren’t exactly thrilled about that. They said they would fix everything and look into replacing furnace and ac which I was excited about as it wasn’t an absolute refusal or anything. We should hear by today the results of that and tomorrow if everything is okay with the appraisal for our FHA loan.

We started packing already and OH! Just got a text that makes me SO HAPPY!!!! The seller is fixing ALL problems and replacing AC and FURNACE. Wahoo! I’m so dang excited!!! Oh man that is such a huge relief seriously!!!!

BRIDEZILLA

So have you ever seen how fast chickens run? Especially with the heads cut off, and they don’t exactly know which way they are going or how they will get there? Yeah that’s been me for about a month.

WE ARE INSANE TO BE GETTING MARRIED APRIL 9^TH AND GETTING IN A HOUSE AT SAME TIME. Seriously crazy are we! But it will work somehow. Not only are things crazy with trying to plan wedding etc and getting into the house, but work is all crazy too! When it rains it pours my friends!

I am so excited to get married. So fun! I have pretty much all of the decorations bought. We do have lots of things to assemble and work on that way. I have most of the addresses compiled-holy project and a half that has been! This weekend I’m going to print off the invitations and we have a little party with friends etc on Saturday to assemble some stuff. Yeah!

I have had a couple of bridezilla moments when I’ve freaked out about stuff lol.

Weight

I had gained over the holidays (like most the world I’m sure). After that I’ve stayed about the same. I skipped my weigh-in last week, but the week before I’d lost .9 pounds. J

I’m Not Fat Enough?

Show News

So I heard from Brandon with casting again. Apparently I’m not fat enough. He said he is considering me for Biggest Loser that they cast in February and he said not to change a thing. I have the look, I have the personality. He said the reason I didn’t make it is because I wasn’t big enough. HA. Trust me, that is the first time I’ve ever heard that in my life. I feel better though.

Health

So I’m doing good eating wise, not sure I’ll have much time for exercise tonight, but I did get some activity in.

WALKING:

So Heather (co-worker and friend) and I went walking for 30 minutes today at work. It was really nice actually. I’m so proud of us for doing it! It was very cold but I feel so good from it. It really helps me as I’m so sore from my workout last night.

Random

Poor Adam. He has had to work late every night this week. I was teasing him that he had a girlfriend cuz he didn’t get home until 2. It’s a bitch being a programmer sometimes apparently.

Sheesh why is it when you are in a complete hurry (meaning you are still at work way too long after hours) that at that moment is when your mouse decides to not work? Argggh. Took me a minute to realize it just needed a new battery. Oh my aren’t I fancy with my wireless mouse lol?

I didn’t make the show….

Rejection

I’m not gonna lie. It hurts. I found out officially I didn’t make the show. (The new weight loss reality tv show that ABC is doing).

I pretty much figured two weeks ago that I didn’t make it and cried a lot. But now that I know for reals, its so much worse.

I so shouldn’t blog right now because I’m having a pity party. Pity party for one. Sheesh. I just feel like a total loser.

I’m seriously at a loss as to why I didn’t get picked. From the videos I saw, I am more entertaining. I’m pretty-I have the look they want. I have a dramatic story definitely. So I just don’t get it. The only thing I can think of is that I’m not as out of shape as they want. Like possibly they want someone who can’t even tie their shoes etc so its more of a dramatic after.

How funny, see that bit about me being kind of fit for my weight screws me again. (Adam’s trainer says that’s why its so hard for me to lose).

I should stop now because I’m seriously grumpy. Deep down I know I can do it, but I guess I kind of doubt that at the moment. I will snap out of it.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

PROJECT 200

YEAR SO FAR:

Exercise: 3/3 Days

Caffeine Withdrawal: 3/3 Days

Yeah me!!!!! I seriously rock. I know, I know. Hold your applause please!

FOOD:

Slacker didn’t count points today! But I know I followed it good.

EXERCISE:

I had a plan to hit the gym earlier in the day, but I ended up talking to Jen. OUR NIECE MEGAN IS GETTING MARRIED! AND SO IS JEN!!! They both got engaged around New Years, so we had lots to talk about. I went to storage and wrote down all the things I have bought/received (so much stuff I have gotten from Val-Adam’s mom. Totally love her). I even took pictures of stuff. It was a lot of work! Then went to Jen’s and did the same thing, cuz wedding is around the corner. Gotta get going on everything seriously.

It was a lot of fun talking wedding chat to Jen.

So anyway, my POINT was that I exercised later on at night. I did one of Turbo Jam’s Cardio parties lol. And it was totally a party (wonder if it was in my ass and legs, cuz they sure ache today). I could only do 25 of 50 minutes of it.

WHATEVER (Journal Moments):

Afternoon

We went and saw Avatar. OMG it was so good! You know when you see a movie and you are completely taken in, forgetting it was a movie. I’m not even sure you have to be a geek to appreciate it. I think there is something for everyone. There is plenty of action and special effects for the men. There is a little romance for the ladies. 3d for the kids. Seriously the combination of all of that was pure magic. One of the most beautiful as far as the picture goes. Anyway go see it and if you do, you have to see it on the IMAX or 3D viewing. Its so worth it!

Let’s Cheer the New Year!

Saturday, January 2, 2010

PROJECT 200

WEIGH-IN:

378

So I did weigh myself but didn’t go to Weight Watchers. Slacker! It’s a terrible excuse but seriously this cold is still kicking my ass hard-core. I just couldn’t get up early at all. This lazy gig stayed in bed until right before we went to the gym.

YEAR SO FAR:

Exercise: 2/2 Days

Caffeine Withdrawal: 2/2 Days

Yeah me!!!!!

FOOD:

Slacker didn’t count points today! I started off ok and then tapered off

Breakfast: toast, eggs & salsa, banana

Lunch: turkey sandwhich, bean dip & tortilla chips

Dinner: Homemade chicken vegetable soup & 2 wheat rolls

Snacks:

• Handful of whoppers
  
• Crackers
  
• Fiber One Bar
  
• Cheesestick
  
• Banana
  

THE GYM:

Well I did 10 more minutes than yesterday, so 30 all together. Woot! I did 10 on the elliptical and 20 on the treadmill.

The gym is SO much fun to people watch. Oh come on, admit you like it. In our gym it is upstairs, and there are 3 rows of machines. If you are on the front row, you can see down below and watch the men pumping iron-lol. And something funny I’ve noticed about all these buff guys-most of them are super short, like they are compensating for something. Like how us chubby girls have gotta be cute. Like we aren’t already adorable lolz. But the downside to being on the first row, is you know that guys are staring at your ass. I have a total shelf-butt and people probably are pulled into it’s gravitational force-amazed and shocked by its grandeur. Seriously, I think my butt probably weighs like 40 pounds just alone-maybe more.

And if you are on the 2^nd or 3^rd row, sadly you cannot see the muscle men, but you have plenty of READING material. If you forgot your headphones or a magazine, or book, just take a look at the shorts or pants. Why just today I read apostrophe, juicy, and candy on asses. It’s fun to see what people wear too and how they act.

And it’s the second of January, so you have LOTS of extra people which is kind of funny. You have to admire them and their ‘New Year’s resolutions’. But you know there won’t be half as many in 2-3 weeks. There were TONS of people today. Its kind of a rhythmic hum as all those machines working-all those sweating bodies. It should really stink more than it does.

There is one girl that goes to the singles ward I used to be in, back in my religious days. She has lost a TON of weight which so impresses me. She is a great example to me. There is this really old couple who are so sweet. There is couple who are so cute to watch who jog. I find it especially funny when you catch someone doing something they figure no one else can see like picking their nose or picking a melvin when their underwear has just ridden up too much.

One girl I saw today I seriously envy. She wasn’t super thin-really shapely but tone and about my height. She looked so cute, but not in a ‘bitch’ or ‘I think I’m all that’ kind of way. She was wearing a tank top and pants that showed off her figure, but it was modest-neither her boobs or ass was hanging out. So envious of that. I would love to be able to wear that. Just have to keep it up!

WHATEVER (Journal Moments):

Afternoon

So we are playing D & D (Dungeons and Dragons) tonight. I only really played once before. I remember thinking as a young child that people who did that were freaks or devil-worshippers. LOL, I don’t know why I thought that. Now I just know they are geeks. Thank God we aren’t dressing up or anything (though why do I think its ok to do that for Murder Mystery Parties lol). Gotta create a character and Adam’s brother’s and Kristen (Nick’s girlfriend) are coming over to play. I’m going to make them chicken noodle soup. Still need to do some cleaning so its gonna be busy!

Tomorrow we are seeing Avatar-sheesh I really AM a geek. Adam brought out my inner geek, but I know I always was one. Besides the gym, I also want to do some wedding stuff-holy cow just over 3 months so I really need to kick it in gear! I also need to start reading this book for work. So much fun!

This week at work is going to be crazy. Probably going to have to put in some overtime, but that’s life. J

And I guess I could get a call from the show on Monday, but I’m only secretly counting on it J

Evening

Dungeons and Dragons was actually pretty fun, and there was absolutely no satan worshipping at all. Oh its just like any other game really. Its kind of like an adventure game where you fight things etc, and how well you do, depends on what you roll on the dice. Kind of like an adventurous bonko. Adam is so cute! He is a really good story-teller so that makes it really fun.

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!

Friday, January 01, 2010

PROJECT 200

EXERCISE:

Still haven’t been feeling the greatest or anything, but I did go to the gym. Did the treadmill at a crazy slow speed because I’m hacking all over the place and just so not feeling well. But I’m proud of myself for making the effort, because it certainly wasn’t easy. I just really didn’t want to. But its amazing as I was walking. I just felt so proud of myself for doing it, and some of my determination is coming back.

MIND/SOUL:

I’m convinced your heart has to be in it full-fledged. It can’t just be that you want it. You have to WANT it mind, body, and soul. You have to have a serious hunger for it-this quest to health.

And yes, project 200 has not gone how I expected, but that’s ok. It has evolved into something different. It is now my quest to get under 200 pounds. But I will place no time goal on it. I expect it could take me 3 years, but it doesn’t matter. All my life I was taught that you had to have very specific goals, and they had to have a time stamp on them. But in all of the years I’ve tried to lose weight, that has seriously bit me majorly in the ass. I put too much pressure on myself and get too impatient. I’ll expect it to happen so quick. The problem with that is that you don’t always lose as quickly as you would like. But I was losing is the thing. But it wouldn’t be much and I would get all depressed. Sometimes people knew I was working on things and not meeting those expectations could be hard as well sometimes. But forget all that.

Here are my objectives:

• Be patient
  
• Eat healthy
  
• Exercise
  
• Life life!
  

MISCELLANEOUS:

New Years Eve

We had SO much fun last night. Well and lunch was a blast too. We hung out with Matt and Jen who are moving to Australia because Matt got a job offer. So cool! These are our friends we play Wow with. It was a blast! So nice catching up with them.

We went to Adam’s family and played games last night. Old dad and Cynthia were there. Its this couple that Val and Brad (Adam’s parents) know. I so ate too much food but it was a blast

My Sis is Engaged!

Wahoo for Jen! She is also engaged, so we are both getting married in 2010! Wahoo!

It’s almost New Years!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

PROJECT 200

I am doing good still foodwise.

WHATEVER (Journal Moments):

Morning

Do you ever just wish for a moment that you could get hit by a truck? I mean I don’t really mean that and I’m not suicidal or anything….maybe I just wish I could escape the country for a few days. Oh better yet, maybe I could be a bear and just hibernate for the winter. That would be awesome.

I woke up and I feel WORSE this morning. Seriously came in at 9 instead of 8 because I couldn’t get my ass out of bed. My throat hurts so bad and I’m coughing and my nose is a damn faucet. So grumpy its not even funny. I’m just hoping that no one talks to me at work today-I have no patience for it.

I looked out the window to see that it is snowing and the roads are terrible. Oh yeah. When I hugged Adam goodbye I told him there was no way in hell I was going to the gym tonight because I could barely drag myself out of bed. And I still love him to pieces, but here he could sleep all day-he has the entire week off. I’m bitterly jealous about that.

People keep asking me about the blasted show so now I’ve been thinking about it again. Just want a confirmation about it. I’d pretty much given it up entirely, but now I keep thinking ‘well its possible’. Grrrr.

Afternoon

Of course its snowing again for the evening drive. Time to get the hell out of dodge. Thank God I don’t work tomorrow! Seriously haven’t been this miserable (or complained quite as much lol) with a cold forever!

I Hate Being Sick

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

PROJECT 200

I am just praying that when I weigh in at Weight Watchers on Saturday that I don’t weight 388 pounds like I did the day after Christmas-eek!

WHATEVER (Journal Moments):

Wedding

Well I did confirm the ceremony/reception location is in fact booked for April 9^th.booked for April 9th. ceremony/reception location is in fact the main actor knew how cheezy

Afternoon

This day is just miserable. My nose now hurts from this stupid cold and I keep coughing and nose running all over the world. I seriously feel like a walking infection. And I’m jealous as hell because Adam is home all week. Oh man I seriously wish I had more vacation time.

Sheesh bitch and moan. Bitch and moan! I’m a whiner people and I know it. I own it and I refuse to change it. Its my trademark quality. At least I’m cute. Ha ha totally kidding.

Evening

I swear, you don’t know just how boring you are until you create a blog lol. We just have been so tired from the holiday and with the miserable cold that I just don’t want to do anything. We haven’t even really played wow much.

Yeah so the excitement of my night was playing Farkle. I did a couple preparation things for the wedding but not much. I also put the Christmas crap away. I wanted to do more but just had no energy so we watched ‘Dead Like Me’. Gosh I sort of feel like that sometimes.

I seriously love that show. It must have done terrible because there are only 2 seasons of it and a movie. We have now watched both seasons and just need to watch the movie. The main character reminds me of me because she is ornary as hell. At least that is how I am when I’m sick, tired, in pain, or on the rag lol.

Seriously you need to check the show out. She is this lifeless thing doing nothing with her life at 18 when she is killed. She becomes a grim reaper. I love any shows about death. I’m sure that means something horrible about me but I don’t care.

Game on Peeps

 

Monday, December 28, 2009

PROJECT 200

Well I’m back! I have to be really good, I just gotta. I want to be healthy.

Breakfast:

Lunch:

Dinner:

Snacks:

Thoughts:

I just know I can do this! Stay strong Holly. J The holidays, the hard part is over. Its not like you get as tempted around Valentines Day or St. Patricks day lol.

Things
that
went
great:

I actually did drink water at work in between the diet soda. I’m very proud of this-even though it meant several extra trips to the potty room.

What
needs
improvement:

Need to incorporate more veggies. This always seems to be the struggle. I have to really try to get enough in. (Apparently they don’t just appear on your desk-no matter how much you try the Harry Potter ascio summoning spell)

WHATEVER (Journal Moments):

Morning

I had to really resist the urge to go to McDonald’s or Burger King this morning. Adam was asleep and didn’t have to work today and I was running late to make eggs. I can’t make them myself people. I’ve become accustomed to being spoiled. LOL. I just did the quick and easy thing, but hey it is better than fast food by far.

Afternoon

Wow so much going on right now! Work is crazy. There is a lot to do in preparation for this classroom training.

And I have to admit I have kind of wondered if I will in fact get a call next week on the 4^th, but I doubt it. But I would be lying if I said I hadn’t at least thought about it. I honestly didn’t think about it much over the long weekend and over Christmas, but today at work its suddenly popped up in my head again.

Wedding

It is seriously crazy how soon it is coming up! Last night I started working on my list again. I haven’t completed it. I seriously need to start getting addresses. That seems like the most annoying part really. Some things need to be finalized, but there is a lot that needs to be done. Craziness. I have a feeling that February and March will involve a LOT of planning. But there are definitely things I can do this next month to make it not so crazy. I keep worrying that I will forget some essential piece. But not having the funds for a wedding planner, you just kind of get what you get. But then again, I’m pretty laid back and not exactly the kind that will freak if our napkins didn’t show up. Those kind of things may be an annoyance, but I’m confident things will work out. I’m so grateful that I have lots of help!

This is how I want my hair:

 

Evening

It was family night. Always fun. I seriously love Adam’s family. We watched the movie House. It is this old ’scary’ movie back in the 70’s. The guy who stars in it was on Greatest American Hero. Ha ha ha. That’s a blast from the past. The movie was seriously classic. And its almost like the main actor knew how cheesy it was. Loved it!

We had a potato bar-yum.

Post Christmas

Sunday, December 27, 2009

PROJECT 200

Exercise for the last few days:

What is exercise? Oh wait, I did get some shoveling food into my mouth as fast as I could….

Food:

Mmm food, yes there was LOTS of it. The really yummy, fattening kind!

Thoughts:

I sure enjoyed it at the time. As always I had the best intentions to eat in moderation and be careful, blah blah blah. And as usual I ignored that and ate a lot! Yikes

Things that went great:

Food was delicious!

What needs improvement:

I can’t even find the words to describe other than…….PUT DOWN THE FORK!

WHATEVER:

CHRISTMAS:

Oh the holidays were wonderful! I hope you enjoyed yourself as well….or if you prefer had a great Hannekua, or just had some great days off!

It was seriously a busy couple of days-I think I already blogged the ‘itinerary’. We started off at Jen’s (my sister’s) house first on Christmas Eve at 2 PM. We had stayed up late the night before making yummy, glorious pies.

It was so much fun-they had started earlier for me and Adam since it was our year to go to his family celebration. It is so much fun playing with the nieces and nephews. We actually played Payday. It was extra special because Thomas and Tasha (brother and sister) were also there. I had Daisy make them some socks and a hat that were crocheted and they seriously loved them! Even Thomas liked it, even though it wasn’t a toy. Wahoo! I got the cutest picture of them.

It was really fun when we started wrestling and having tickle fights with the kids. It was so cute to see the kids bond with Adam.

We were at Heather’s just after 6. We had a total blast there as well. I think they really liked our movie baskets. We got a lot of fun stuff too. It was fun just to visit with everyone and the food was yummy, though I was seriously not impressed with the bean casserole I had found on the internet-it tasted like flour! Ick. We were seriously tired after that but then went to Adam’s parents for a bit. They have a tradition where they read the Christmas story and The Night Before Christmas. So much fun as it feels like my tradition now, even though its only the second year.

We went home and were back there the next morning on Christmas at 8. And this is where the food began. The most wonderful breakfast made by brad, of course including bubble bread (the yummiest stuff on the planet). And yeah, we totally got spoiled again! I got two purses, a shirt, a couple movies, lotions, and more! So much stuff-spices, a popcorn popper. I also got a snuggy, pillow, and a movie from Joey. I seriously love his family, and not just for the presents!

In the afternoon we had a nice lunch at his Grandma’s. Then back to Jen’s with the family. Doug & Doug Jr, Patty & Richard, Ryan & Suzie and all my family were there. Chad and his parents were there too!

They all loved the pies. Jen didn’t get a ring YET, and I was just sure she would.

MOVING ON:

Well I know what to do. Just DO it. I weighed in after Christmas and it was 388! Sheesh. So I need to lose a lot before I weigh in at WW next Saturday (they are closed until then)

TODAY:

We have been totally slacking today-though I did do laundry, cook, shop, and organized all our movies.